Awake

Not the shot from Beyond I was planning on using, but fitting! Also: everyone remembers the Animatrix, right???

Short update but an exciting one! I’ve had a very happy development over the past week or so. After talking with my doctor, I had the dosage of my anti-depressant upped (it’s now at the maximum). I wasn’t expecting a lot, and was also given a referral to a psychiatrist for trying other medications in the future.

But it turns out, this new dose seems to help me stay awake during the day. Less intrusive sleep, less falling asleep super-easily in the middle of things, and it’s easier to stay awake once I get up in the morning! Given that it used to be quite simple for me to fall asleep at my desk, on the couch, wherever, this is super super exciting for me. I sometimes still need caffeine still, but it’s more of a general boost now instead of a “it’s this or passing out at my desk.” Granted, there are a couple downsides. It’s harder to get to sleep at night, or get back to sleep. But both are still very manageable, and I’ll happily take not feeling exhausted all the time in exchange.

Hopefully this’ll last after my body gets a little more used to the new medication. But I’m very happy with this promising sign.